Sunday, 23 August 2015

A Tide And The Affairs Of Men.

This story is about a flood that swept through half an acre worth of families and faults in the old 1980's.
Six and a half villages it ate, and thousand of young lives it ate.

When the flood breached the first village, villagers ran to where they thought they'd be safest.

Some people bolted their door shut and prayed for the best.
The flood will surely spare the homes where love and longing has taken roots for generations, they said.

And the flood came and ate them all the same.

Some people took shelter in the nearest school.
The flood will surely spare the hallowed grounds where a thousand footsteps of kids resound with every morning bell, they said.

And the flood came and ate them all the same.

Some people hid inside the panchayat block office.
The flood surely won't harm the place where justice is imparted with every stroke of the pen, they said.

And the flood came and ate them all the same.

Some people rushed into the nearest temple.
The flood dare not touch the abode of Gods, they said.

And the flood came rushing, like a pack of wolves wet with sweat and saliva that smelt like predators, and ate them all the same.

After short intervals of fruitless lapses of time in the lives of men, there comes a tide that threatens to change things now and then.

This tide in the affairs of men, comes unsuspecting, and touches our lives into ripples that shake our beliefs and turn them anew.

This tide laps at our ankles gently at first, then grows till we wash our hands in it, and grows further till we dip our heads into the smothering water and come up gasping for breath, only to find ourselves as a new man.

This tide whispers into our ears and talks about our insecurities and soothes our fears and acts like an old friend.

This tide tells us about things we never knew we needed, about things that were buried so deep inside us we were afraid digging it up would make us into dinosaurs again.

This tide talks loud enough for us to know and to believe that we are all deprived of something, but not clear enough for us to know what.

The tide in the affairs of men, grows out of our hopelessness and desires.

We stoke it by opening our minds to it. We feed it with what we think is our worth.

The tide in the lives of men, washes us ashore as it advances through lands and valleys, and everywhere it goes, more men are changed and more men are birthed again.

How it changes us, is given to our own choices.
But what the tide is capable of, truly, is to take us in its waters and make us anew.

The self obsessed thinks the tide pertains only to him.
The self aware thinks the tide doesn't concern him.

The truth is, the tide, like the flood of the eighties, takes in all there is to in its path.

The rich, the influential, the powerful. The poor, the hungry, the sad.
How we all rise up to life again, is what we have to decide.

For now, we could hold our breath.
For now, we could not let the water fill our lungs.

For now,  we could only hope.

[ In-house Artist: Isha Yadav]

Only if you see me.

I've been fuming 
Over these pimples for
 a while now. 
They will fade away.

The wrinkles peeping 
From the corners of 
My flawed face.
They will bloom youth.

Ma, who jitters my diet
For haemoglobin
Trust me, 
My blood will become more red.

And this damned poetry
That stirs their soul
As I speak,
Will be silenced, will be quiet.

Brume is freezing
Numbing my skin
But when you touch me
I'll be warm.

Only when you see me, dear love
Only if you see me,
There will be sun, I promise, 
Only when you see me.

•Isha•





In-house artist: Isha Yadav

Sunday, 16 August 2015

Rules of Regret.

Rule #1: Never expect from someone more than what they've not promised.
With expectations come heartbreaks, with heartbreaks come desperation.

Rule #2: Even if you expect more from someone, prepare to have your heart broken.
With preparation comes acceptance, with acceptance comes strength.

Rule #3: Even if you don't prepare to have your heart broken, learn to live through it.
With living comes maturity, with maturity comes the perspective to let things truly slide.

Rule #4: Even if you can't live through it, don't let the sadness get to you.
With sadness comes loneliness, with loneliness comes grief.

Rule #5: Even if you let the sadness get to you, don't let the pain overwhelm you.
With pain comes endurance, with endurance comes hope for better days.

Rule #6: Even if you let the pain overwhelm you, never act on an impulse.
With impulsion comes thoughtlessness, with thoughtlessness comes bad decisions.

Rule #7: Even if you make a bad decision, try to live with it.
With regret comes the urge to give up, with the urge to give up comes the blade on messy wrists.

Rule #8: If you fuck up all the rules, remember what I said at last.
The tragedy is that I never did.

Saturday, 15 August 2015

No new message

Half this night,
waste in sigh. 

Ceilings stare back in awe.

 Blanket hugs me a little warmer.

 There is no new message. 

My toes curl up for
this cold, cold night 
The brume also, smothers the sky.

But I lay on this chaise

and there is no new message.

Should you think of me,
and want me as 
I yearn you this very moment,

Dear love, I and this night

are awake in a hope

in love, in time


till there is no new message.

In-house artist: Isha Yadav

Sunday, 9 August 2015

An year older fool.

The clock has striked

And a new age has come
A new wrinkle, a new black spot

The older, the better, they'd say
So my facebook's full
And the texts and call

Isn't it true of the world,
That what you hide is 
Indeed a celebration

But you haven't called yet.

Oh, look at me
I'm an year older fool. Today,
An year older fool.

Expecting the ruin
You won't call, but text?
Tonight, I'm craving the words
You never said
Looking for your voice in those happy bdays. 
Looking for your smile in those smileys.

It is my ruin, oh lover. 

That there is no love. 
Even today.

How do I welcome this new age, without you. 

'Wish me already' I mutter under my breath

This burden is year older
This wait, this lorn Is year older

Look at me. 

I'm an year older fool.

Saturday, 8 August 2015

Slippery When Wet.

Most things in life are just reminders of what has happened already, and what's to come.

Most things in life also follow certain obligatory rules, like having to start a blog with an introductory blog post, wherein you ramble a bit about who you are and just how much you long to get laid, building the post to a crescendo with a few casually flung etymologically superior jargon that shall give intellectuals instant erections, and end it with promises of what shall come subsequently.

Standard blog post, level one, unlocked and achieved.

A week ago, I didn't know how a blog worked.
I had tried making a blog in early 2010, and spent an entire day trying to make my first post. At the end of the day I had a dysfunctional blog with a password I promptly forgot, and a new Facebook profile which I handled right until my lovely ex hacked into it to show me how pissed she could be.

The second time I made a blog, it lasted exactly two posts long, before I decided Instagram was a better fit.
What I'm trying to say is, blogging is a work that requires lots of patience and time, and usually comes with a lot of hope but not enough fruits.

Why another blog then, you might ask.
For two reasons, mainly, I shall tell you.
Firstly, I got an offer from one of my favourite writers, which as film buffs would put it, is an offer one can't refuse.
Secondly, it is about something we both believe in, and have wanted to get done for a long time.

Maybe this one will fail splendidly as well, but as she put it, it guarantees we can work with someone we mutually admire, and besides, I won't lie- It is a lot of fun.

Another thing I'd want to put in, is the effort it took me to get myself educated about the nitty-gritty of blogging.
For example, the title. From a person who named his first blog "Few Funny Thoughts" (which sounded like, and was, entirely comedic), I went on to talking about names like Skippy Skittles (which I thought was downright a porn parody headline), to Jagged Pills, which had been trademarked by Alanis Morisette (don't lie, you've all heard her breakup songs and cried into your pillow), to finally arriving on what we actually call our blog.
Another episode was me trying to find out how to co-blog (a big thank you to Maupali and Sambit, for helping me out with that one and everything else), but that's another story.

Summing up, here's our blog.

It's not about rants. It's not about what we ate, or how hot our poop was (for those who think I'm joking, there is indeed a site that rates your poop pics).
It's about a dream that's been too long and too passionate in the making. It's about writing and painting and ego and blocs and a big reveal (that'll come in the end, if you are still following).

Enough said.
Comment. Criticize. Chimichangas.
Happy readings, everyone.